To many, the concept of self-examination sounds about as pleasing as standing earlier than the mirror and slowly surveying your bodily imperfections. Who has heard, “Let’s spend a while analyzing ourselves,” and smiled?
For some, self-examination could even recall reminiscences we’ve got tried arduous to neglect. Perhaps, in some depressing previous, we spent untold hours digging inwardly, desperately attempting to root out hidden sins. Within the course of, we found simply how darkish and hopeless — how Christless — life underground might be.
I can sympathize. I keep in mind occasions once I felt locked in my very own soul like Christian within the fortress of Big Despair. I’ve lived by way of lengthy seasons with out non secular sunshine. Morbid introspection nonetheless tempts me right now.
“In Scripture, wholesome saints look outward primarily, however they don’t look outward solely.”
However alongside that dismal previous and current hazard, I’ve additionally found one thing surprising: the remedy for unhealthy introspection isn’t merely to consider your self much less, however to consider your self higher. Sure, self-examination can change into a jail cell of introspective gloom — nevertheless it needn’t. Performed rightly, self-examination can change into a pathway to non secular well being, a buddy who leads us inward solely to steer us additional outward, who reveals us self so we would see extra of Christ.
Search Me, O God
However why, some could ask, do we have to look at ourselves in any respect? If God transforms us as we behold Christ (2 Corinthians 3:18), why would we spend any time beholding self? We alter by the outward look, not the inward, don’t we?
Certainly we do. We’re crops who develop by the rain of self-forgetful worship, the solar of Christward reward. However, even well-watered, well-lit crops want to observe for thorns. Equally, self-examination doesn’t develop us by itself, however it could clear the bottom for development — and preserve us from getting choked.
In Scripture, wholesome saints look outward primarily, however they don’t look outward solely. Like Timothy, they preserve an in depth watch not solely on the gospel however on themselves (1 Timothy 4:16). Like David, they love to think about God’s glory in sky and Scripture, however in addition they enable that glory to light up self (Psalm 19:11–14). Because the writer of Hebrews exhorts, they commit their greatest consideration to “seeking to Jesus,” however now and again in addition they think about the weights and sins that sluggish their tempo (Hebrews 12:1–2).
The sensible know that non secular progress yesterday doesn’t assure non secular progress right now. Judases change into traitors and Demases change into worldlings one small, self-deceived step at a time. And as each historical past and expertise testify, it’s all too attainable to dwell a half-life as a Christian, bearing tenfold fruit when one hundredfold may very well be ours — if solely we might cease to drag the thorns that block our manner.
“The unexamined life isn’t price dwelling,” Socrates famously mentioned. And we justly add that the unexamined soul is not going to go on dwelling — or will limp as a substitute of run.
Tips on how to Study Your self
How then would possibly we look at ourselves with out changing into imprisoned by introspection? How would possibly we draw water from the soul’s nicely with out falling in?
Wholesome self-examination can take many types, and what helps one soul could assist one other much less. As with prayer and Bible studying and different non secular disciplines, Scripture provides us ideas however leaves loads of room for private utility. Take into account, then, some primary pointers for self-examination and the way you would possibly make them your individual.
1. Plan to look at your self.
Usually, self-examination turns into morbid when it turns from a non secular apply to a non secular environment: a imprecise cloud of condemnation that follows you round, a crippling sense of self-consciousness.
Scripture by no means counsels such a relentless interior gaze. The lifetime of a saint is a self-forgetful, Godward, others-oriented life. “Love God” and “love neighbor” are the dual priorities of our days (Matthew 22:37–39); “look at your self” is a apply meant to serve these higher loves. And unusually sufficient, a method we would reclaim wholesome self-examination is by giving it a considerate, well-defined spot in our schedule. As an alternative of perpetually analyzing your self, plan to look at your self.
“Solely the Searcher of hearts can expose our hearts; solely God could make us identified to us.”
Such a plan will embody a particular when. Many saints throughout church historical past have benefited from a short time of self-examination each night, a couple of minutes after we can keep in mind the day’s mercies and confess the day’s sins. However for rising within the apply of self-examination, particularly for these liable to morbidity, I would counsel one thing a bit longer however much less frequent — say as soon as every week (maybe rather than a traditional devotional time).
As necessary because the when is the what. The place will you focus your consideration? For many of us, “look at your self” provides too broad a cost. However “look at your prayer life,” “look at your friendships,” “look at your parenting,” “look at your relationship with cash” — these we are able to get our fingers round.
I discover it useful to assume in two broad classes for self-examination: callings and considerations. By callings, I imply the areas of accountability God has given you: disciple of Jesus, husband or spouse, mom or father, church member, buddy, neighbor, worker, and so forth.
And by considerations, I imply these areas of your soul that decision for cautious consideration. Say, for instance, you’re feeling a pang of envy on a Tuesday afternoon at work. You confess the pang however don’t have time within the second, or even perhaps within the day, to plumb its depths, despite the fact that you sense it could be useful to take action. Why did I really feel that? The place did that come from? Having a plan for self-examination means that you can say, “I’m undecided, however I don’t must determine that out now. I’ll return to it on Friday” — or each time you have got deliberate.
2. Let God’s phrase information you.
So there you might be on Friday morning (or each time), with time put aside for self-examination. What would possibly that point seem like? We would take some cues from David’s prayer in Psalm 139:23–24:
Search me, O God, and know my coronary heart!
Strive me and know my ideas!
And see if there be any grievous manner in me,
and lead me in the best way eternal!
David is aware of that solely the Searcher of hearts can expose our hearts; solely God could make us identified to us. So, as a substitute of diving into his personal soul unaided, he asks God himself to go looking him.
Discover, nevertheless, that David doesn’t merely ask God to go looking him; he additionally locations himself within the presence of this looking God. Most of Psalm 139 travels the depths of God, not self. David stands in awe of God’s all-knowing ideas, God’s all-seeing eyes, God’s all-encompassing presence, God’s all-consuming righteousness. And then, within the context of this profound Godwardness, David says, “Search me.”
Psalm 139 (and the remainder of Scripture) provides self-examination a decidedly asymmetrical focus: we see ourselves rightly solely in relation to God. So, if you wish to look at your self nicely, comply with David and place your self in God’s presence. Virtually, as you look at your self, enable adoration to play simply as vital a task as confession. And all alongside the best way, deal with God’s phrase as your greatest information — the phrase given for our reproof and correction (2 Timothy 3:16), the one phrase that may discern the guts (Hebrews 4:12).
To that finish, think about selecting a passage related to your current focus and utilizing it like a pathway into the soul. If you wish to look at your prayer life, linger over the Lord’s Prayer. If you wish to look at your husbanding, look into the mirror of Ephesians 5:22–33. If you wish to get beneath some persistent tug towards bitterness, stroll slowly by way of Psalm 37 or 73. And as you do, ask God himself to go looking you.
3. Question your soul and confess your sins.
To sharpen our self-examination, we would look once more to David’s prayer. As he asks God to go looking him, he doesn’t ask God to disclose the whole lot about him. However he does ask to see “any grievous manner in me” — any unknown or half-known sin, any deepening unbelief, any creating sample that might preserve him from following “the best way eternal” (Psalm 139:24).
Equally, we don’t must deal with self-examination as an exhaustive enterprise. We can not know the whole lot about ourselves, and even the whole lot about one a part of ourselves. Regardless of how self-aware we change into, we’ll die realizing ourselves, simply as we all know God, solely “partially” (1 Corinthians 13:12). However we do need to see something that wants our current consideration — any toxic bud that might open into grievous sin.
As we meditate on a passage, we could discover assist from asking questions like the next (drawn from web page 148 of Tim Keller’s e-book Prayer):
- Am I dwelling in mild of this?
- What distinction does this make?
- If I believed and held to this, how would that change issues?
- After I neglect this, how does that have an effect on me and all my relationships?
If such questions reveal sins we’ve got tolerated, habits we have to cease, refined compromises which have grown over time, good — our self-examination is bearing fruit. An hour in the past, one thing troubling lay hidden within the soul; now now not. Now we are able to take it, place it earlier than the Lord who is aware of us exhaustively but loves us eternally, and say with David,
I acknowledged my sin to you,
and I didn’t cowl my iniquity;
I mentioned, “I’ll confess my transgressions to the Lord,”
and also you forgave the iniquity of my sin. (Psalm 32:5)
4. Neglect about your self.
Self-examination, like deep-sea diving, is an efficient however occasional train. God has not given us sufficient mild or oxygen to swim all the time within the deeps; solar and air and land await us above. So, after getting queried your soul and confessed no matter sins you’ve seen, return to the floor.
“The tip of self-examination isn’t self-consciousness, however Christ-consciousness.”
The prayer acronym A.C.T.S. places thanksgiving after confession for good cause: in Christ, confession of sin isn’t a room however a doorway, not a wall however a path. God wouldn’t have us sit eternally in some gloomy cellar of guilt; he would have us sing beneath the blue sky of his kindness and stroll within the broad fields of his grace, his steadfast love our environment (Psalm 32:10). So, if self-examination doesn’t frequently lead us to a fuller, deeper, sweeter style of God’s grace in Jesus, then someplace self-examination has gone incorrect.
The tip of self-examination isn’t self-consciousness, however Christ-consciousness. Sure, we’ve got scrutinized our souls for a time, however solely so we would carry our sins to Christ and obtain his energy to stroll a greater manner. The final step of self-examination, then, is just this: neglect about your self. Go love your God. Go love the individuals he has positioned earlier than you. Go stroll in “the best way eternal” (Psalm 139:24).